dark days

where are those words that would that could express truth ?not here.feeling miserable, yes. attending a funeral this friday. didn't get the job i went for. that more a less means that there are no attachments to this place for me, other than friends, but u can't allow that to hold u back, they will endure.have just finished watching A Matter of Life and Death on dvd, that clarified the mood, tearful and melancholic. i was at a party in town last week, knew many people there, an over riding sense of detachment to the events of the evening, i left when a friend who can't dj got on the decks.sat and watched the rain outside in the street, with a cat for company, oblivious creatures.silence, its all we strive for.